Rain

It's raining right now. I don't feel like being profound. I feel like being at home. I wish I was at home. But, I can't go home because I have to lead a workshop in about 45 minutes. I would rather be at home, in my pajamas, snuggled under a blanket, watching TV. Tomorrow is a big day for me. The day I begin to see one of my dreams come true. I am no longer hoping. I am doing. It may not change the external part of my life much, but I think it will definitely change me on the inside. I'm kind of nervous. People are going to read my thoughts and hear my words. I don't know if any of it is any good, but that's not really why I'm doing it anyway. I am making a choice to take a step towards fulfilling a dream.

I may be fired when I return to work on Wednesday. I'm trying to remind myself that all people, even the ones I find it hard to like, are God's creation and deserve to be treated with respect. I'm trying to love my enemy. It's hard, though. I'm hurt. Other people are hurt. And my enemy just sits back satisfied with himself. But this is the real world. I just pray that God will help me love him. I really don't want to, but I guess that doesn't really matter. I've been commanded to love him by God himself. And pleasing God is much more important than pleasing man or my own ego.