God is Real

I wish everyone I know or am acquainted with who doubts God could have been in my kitchen last night and experienced the love of the Lord like I did last night. There is a Christian song that has these words:

All of me, on my knees
Singing holy, holy
Somehow all that matters now
Is you are holy, holy

I fully understand that like I never have before. You see, God has been revealing something to me over the past month of so, and I'm only getting to see bits of pieces of whatever God is doing. And that's not out of some sadistic pleasure God gets from only showing me a little bit at the time. I believe it's because God is showing me only what he has equipped me to handle and understand right now. And that's okay. I take great comfort in the love of a God who knows those things and isn't throwing it all at me at once, AND a God who is daily teaching and equipping me to handle the next step. I don't know what lies ahead, and my greatest fear last night was that I was going to start down my own path, a path based on what I see, instead of walking by faith and letting God show me the next step.

I cried out to him in anguish, and boy did he answer. I described it to a friend like those medical shows where they jab a sharp object into someones chest cavity to relieve the pressure during a heart attack (don't know if that's medically accurate, but that's what I see on TV). It was like that last night. I was standing over God's word, crying out to him to make me obedient, yelling that I didn't understand, and immediately, a peace washed over me. My breathing calmed, what felt like a balloon in my chest seemed to slowly deflate back to normal size. But it was more than a physical peace. It was deep inside of me, my God assuring me that He is Sovereign, He is in control, and He will be faithful in showing me the next step!

I fell to my knees, right there in the kitchen and worshiped my Heavenly Father. There was no other response, no other option. I had to fall face down before my holy God! He is real. He is true. He is faithful. And my priority is to make that known!!!

I serve a God who has called me by name, who summons me, who has designated me as his own. I don't have to be afraid. I don't have to doubt his faithfulness. He is seated on His throne and in control!

I found great comfort from the words of the prophet Isaiah last night:

I call you by your name. I name you, though you do not know me. I ma the Lord and there is no other, besides me there is no God; I equip you, though you do not know me, that people may know, from the rising of the sun and from the west, that there is none besides me; I am the Lord, and there is no other. I form light and create darkness. I make well-being and create calamity, I am the Lord who does all these things. Isaiah 45:4-7